Some make it big

I find it very sad that a few make it big in science and technology while a few don't.
Which few make it and which don't ?
I'll come to the point.
Someone who writes paper like ' Population analysis with Boundspeed algorithm ' or ' Computer aided seepage study in modern flats' or 'Extending Howard analysis to matrix form' etc. are able to make it big. While with my writing of 'Rational number series', I am not able to make it big.
My science and technology is of man and nature.
But others use man, nature and modelling for science and technology.
So modelling is my point of grudge.
In this context I wish to write that my expressions are of the type left hand side equals right hand side. Or approximately.
Yes, modelling is damn important. No need to really drill into very basics all the time. One just uses the relevant model for a problem and extend it to other areas or just extend it.
Frankly, I don't have much knowledge in mathematics. Relevant theories or axioms or lemmas are unknown to me.
I feel it is my human rights to study Euler and Gauss. Just as person needs some butter in his daily food. Unfortunately the books are expensive and I can't afford them. Online library are not much of a solution. I have not tried them.
My point boils down to this.
My science and technology is of man and nature. I am not much aware of models.i.e theories and lemmas. But need to study Euler and Gauss. As a human rights.
Am I empathised? Or do you feel my case is a lost one?